Saturday, December 20, 2008

Memories of Jeremy

Everyone asks me how I am doing lately. I have so many feelings going on right now. I would like to just share a few of them and let them out. This is how I am doing. I lost my best friend, my true love, my soul mate on November 3rd, 2008. I don't know how to act since he left. I don't know where I fit in. Everything reminds me of him. I think of him all day everyday. It hurts so bad. I dont' know what my plans are yet for the future.

Jeremy George Bowles asked me out on a date for April 4, 1997. I thought he was the goofiest man I had ever met. Ever since then I haven't spent a day without talking, texting, or being with him. He was the funniest guy ever. What made him so funny was that he didn't try to be.
Jeremy wasnt' the best at math. Shortly after we were married, Jeremy was going to microwave a burrito. He said, "Sara these are the best if you cook them for eighty seconds". I replied, " Eighty seconds, really? What about a minute twenty seconds?" He said,"No. That's too long. Eighty seconds.........Why are you laughing?"

Jeremy loved Christmas! He was the one that decorated the tree, wrapped all the presents, and made sure that the kids would know that Santa was real. He went out of his way to wrap the "santa" presents in different wrapping paper with different handwriting. He was so quirky, it was awesome! He was so excited Christmas morning that he would video the entire Christmas morning. We always thought those were the most boring home videos, but they were his favs.I didn't want to put up my tree or decorate my house. Luckily, my friend Jill came to my rescue and did that stuff for me.
Jeremy loved me unconditionally. He saw me as a beautiful woman even when I was a fat cow. After I had our twins, I was 190 lbs. Jeremy swears that I was as beautiful as the day we met and he meant it. My least favorite part of my body is my butt. Ironically, that was Jeremy's favorite part of my body. I always felt special when he was around. I miss him so much. I miss feeling that special feeling when he was around. I love you Jeremy! I will love you forever!


Nikki said...

Sara, I love you. I am so sorry you have to go thru something as horrible as this! You are a strong women and I look up to and admire your strength and faith.

Ann Richardson said...

You know Sara, I think a conversation with Eric could be helpful to you. I'm going to send you an email so I can say some things privately. But remember, always remember, that you are loved by so many.