Sunday, March 1, 2009


This is my favorite place on earth.....Heber Chevron/Dairy Queen. Odd I know, but I have a million happy memories here. I ran into Boyd today and it was so good to talk to him.....I woke up this morning and I could not bare the depression that I felt. So I took a drive up to my most peaceful place...Heber. I miss Jill so much I just had to go see her. It was so awesome to talk to her. I did miss my sister's baby blessing and I am so sorry about that. I am so sorry to everyone right now...I just cannot function and I know I have hurt many people because of it. Mostly my children and my close family. On the way home, I discovered that driving 80mph and screaming Vindicated at the top of my lungs is very theraputic.
Of course I had to visit Jeremy, even if I am still angry at him. The mug is still there and the snow finally melted........I told Tiff I was going to the cemetery and she said, Tell Jeremy I said Hi.....what the heck tiff? BTW, he said Hi back...........
This pretty much sums up my internal anguish of the day.


Cicily said...

A good cry is definitely necessary from time to time, I just wished I could look that cute when I cry. You make crying look good. Love you, Sara.

Ben and Maggie said...

I think it's totally normal to be mad and sad at the same time. Jeremy wasn't perfect, but you love him anyway. It's good to be able to see things how they were and not try gloss them over into perfection. That being said, you totally mad me cry. I love you so much. You know you live like a mile away? I RARELY take the kids out (way too much work), so my home is open to you. Anytime you need to talk, I'm hear to listen!